Haiti. "Let's Not Forget".....how shallow are those words?! Really?!! Forget what? That these people are suffering- NOW! The earthquake was 6 weeks ago, and we all knew this would happen. The earthquake is "old" news. You don't hear the stories on every news and radio station like you did for the first couple of weeks, yet Haitians are living it. The despair and chaos is still very real in this country that is literally around the corner from our home.
The children. My heart breaks. Truly I cannot put into words the emotions that fill me when I think about the children. The loss they must be feeling. Yet in the midst of all of this, I hear story after story of people, children PRAISING God. PRAISING HIM!!
And back to the "let's not forget" part. What can be done? What shall we do? What AM I DOING?! This is what fills my heart today.
God is not finished with me yet. Our nice, happy little world was rocked in early December when we made the heart wrenching decision to come home without Ruslana. We have been covered by overwhelming love and support since that time, but I'm not naive in thinking that everyone supports our decision. I feel it. The judgement. Words don't have to be said. And I've had to deal with that.
But above everything else in this world we KNOW that God is with us. He gave us this heart for His children for a reason. And that reason is? Oh geez, I don't know. People have said to me, "E, you cannot save the world." My feelings about those words- tell me why not! Give me one good reason. Not an excuse but a reason. If I give into the "I cannot save the world" mentality, then I feel like I'm throwing in the towel. Our journey to Ruslana last year was hard. Ukraine was hard. But I refuse to just give up and give in to society and the "easiness" that so many think is the right way. God has mighty, mighty plans for me and I cannot wait for those plans to be revealed.
I have prayed about Haiti specifically for several years now. Is Haiti in our future? Only God knows. Of course, my prayer is "YES!! PICK ME! PLEASE, USE ME!"
Sorry for the rambling in this post. My heart is going crazy tonight.
In Him,
E
**Disclaimer- the "us/'s" part of "Let's" is not directed towards any one person, but more towards myself.
4 comments:
I even went so far as to fill out the aplication with an agency to help. Called several others. Nothing. I am sad that God is shutting that door when we are so willing! This empty pink room.... I jsut have to know that for some reason God wants me to be in the waiting place. Remember, there will always be naysayers. I choose to let them ask the hard questions to cause me to hunt for Gods answers. I will answer for what I did. Not anyone else. I am the only one held accountable for me.
"Adopting one child will not hange the world; but for that one child, the world will change." Christine Reed.
I totally get your rambling. My heart is torn in two. I have such trouble reconciling my need to "save the world" with my "real life". The dichotomy of spirit and reality causes me great emotional stress sometimes. It would be so easy to put the passion on the back burner, so to speak, and continue on with my daily routine, but I don't believe that would be living as I'm called to live.
I have no answers. Only questions. For now, I repeat what you said, "I am willing!"
Just two words today E...I'm on a retreat....okay four words...
TRUST HIM
and
Love you!
E,
Boy do i understand how you feel. I feel that same way. Our door was closed to get Srecko, but i am willing to see where God leads us. Yes , we had many people that were upset with us,we even got thrown out of the R.R. group because of it. But we pray God leads us to our next child. If there is to be A NEXT..WE WILL SEE!!
Bless you
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