Wow.
I'm glad I waited, though, because God was working on me. Still is working on me. Will He ever be finished working on me?:) It's hard for me to sometimes write about things beneath the surface on the pages. Superficial is much more comfortable for me. But I've been struggling. It's nothing new to most of you, probably (yes, here I go.....again).
Comfort. Being a Christian isn't about being comfortable. Being a Christian isn't about saying "yes" on a certain day then living life as we choose. It's about sacrifice. It's about being so in love with Him and so passionate about His word that "comfort" as we know it is a thing of the past. It's about being in a place so out of your norm that you MUST rely on Him.
25 For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. 26 What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul? 27 For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what they have done.
28 “Truly I tell you, some who are standing here will not taste death before they see the Son of Man coming in his kingdom.”
Matthew 16:25-28 (NIV)
It's been said to me "You can't beat yourself up because you were born here (USA)." "It's not your fault that you have the luxuries most of the world lives without." "E, you can't change the world!" "You can't save all the children." And on and on and on. I've heard most of the things that people say to make themselves feel better, and honestly, THOSE WORDS MAKE ME ANGRY! Some are said by people I hold dear who just don't get it. And I usually don't have the nerve to stand up and fight. Not fight as in blood and guts. But fight as in fighting for the orphans. For the oppressed. For those our Lord calls "the least". We are called to fight, people. It's not something I just feel like saying. The Bible says it. Today I made yummy (OH SO YUMMY!) chocolate chip pancakes while hundreds of thousands of children starved. And guess what?!
There. I said it.
As I type this on my (GASP!) 5 year old computer while sitting in my comfy chair, fully clothed and warm, my heart breaks. And that's how I feel. Too many Christmas gifts to count are scattered around our home. So many clothes that I must do laundry daily. That is sad. Or even sadder is that I can do other things and NOT have to do laundry for days and days.
But in this same moment, there is music filling our home and my heart sings! Because my daughter gets it and is PRAISING HIS NAME through song!
God is stirring my heart and I LONG for the next big reveal.
This is the year of change. I PRAY that the Lord will use our family for something RADICAL. Not radical in His eyes because He expects nothing less. But something RADICAL in the eyes of society. Not for our glory. Not so that we can be in the spot light. But so that the Lord will shine and the lives of His least will be changed.
Lord, please use us. Radically.
In Him,
E
7 comments:
beautiful post. You spoke my heart exactly. I want the same thing. If your desire to be used of Him, He WILL use you! And I Love your blog! :)
Beautiful...I struggle with many of the same feelings. I try to turn that guilt into thankfulness & action. Have a blessed day!
nicely said.....
Praying for you and your radical family ;) So well put!!
Amen.... as I look at friends of mine I see God using them greatly and some times they are not aware of it. They are just living their lives... that is called walking the walk. I share your heart and your desires... doing more... what will this year hold for us all? Here is to more open eyes...
Dawn
Yes! Me, too.
I've been praying God will loosen my tongue so that I say these things that He's teaching me.
Can't wait to see what He's going to do through your family!
Amen. Me too Lord. Me too.
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