It's Rough

Oh me. From 6:45-8:30 all parents are kicked out of CICU for shift changes and briefing. So you better believe that at 8:31 we were back at Celia's bedside. Her nurse told us that she had really been agitated and fighting, so they had to give her some more meds to calm her down. At this point, they wanted us to try not to touch her much nor talk to her. SO hard for the momma!! She was quiet and relaxed so I listened.:)

Around 30 minutes later, the respiratory leader noticed blood POOLING around and under her head!!!! OH MY HEAVENS!! It turned out to be no big deal- only a cracked piece of a connector to the IV in her neck. But this meant changing all of her bedding and washing her head......which meant moving her around......which meant stirring her........which meant a very sad baby. The silent tears. Just streaming down her face. No sound coming from that precious mouth (because she's still on the vent) but her mouth moving like she was crying. My heart wash shattering and I couldn't do a thing. After being cleaned up, covered up and situated, she calmed and rested fairly well for the next couple of hours.

I knew going into today that Celia's surgery and recovery would most likely be nothing like Charlie's for many reasons. He was a healthy baby with absolutely no feeding or lung issues going into surgery. Celia has severe reflux and aspirates, recieves all feedings through an NJ tube and is on Captopril to keep her lung blood pressure down. Celia's recovery has been COMPLETELY different from Charlie's. At this point, Charlie had been weaned off of the vent and we were able to hold him. We PRAY Celia will be off the vent sometime in the morning but there is no rush. And no, we haven't been able to hold her yet.

HARD, SAD, WONDERFUL, HEALING DAY FOR OUR GIRL IN HIS NAME!!!

More tomorrow- I am falling asleep while writing.

In Him,

E