I feel like I should update everyone on the status of Ruslana's adoption. We thought we would have received our travel date last week but because of the H1N1 virus outbreak in Ruslana's country, things are moving a little slower. PRAYERFULLY we'll receive news tomorrow or Wednesday, and yes, I'll let you know when we hear something.:) If my calculations are right (which I'm sure they're not:), we'll be traveling around the end of the first week in December.
I'll be honest- I am terribly excited and beside myself at the thought of FINALLY meeting our angel, but a part of me is very sad. We may miss Christmas. I know. I know. "Think about God's gift to us, E." "Think about what God is blessing you with this Christmas, E." "How could Christmas be any sweeter than meeting one of God's angels chosen just for you- one that He has chosen to share with you?!?" You see, I've heard it all, and I know. I really do and can't believe that He chose us. God is blessing us in the most undeserving way. We are so unworthy, yet, He continues to amaze us with His goodness over and over, and I'm still uneasy and sad. Sad that we may not be here to celebrate with our family. Sad that my kids may be waking up without us Christmas morning. I am praying for peace. I know our children will be surrounded with love during our entire absence.
I am also a bit uneasy about $. I feel like I keep coming back to this. Of course, it has turned out that we will be traveling during the busiest time of year and guess what that means? The most expensive time to fly. We thought our total flights would be around $4000 and that we would have some air miles or discounts through a friend, but I'm not sure that will work out. So, this is what it's looking like-
2 round trip tickets for 2 adults- around $2,200
2 round trip tickets for 2 adults for 2nd trip and 1 ticket home for Ruslana- $3400
Yikes! About $1600 more than we were hoping. And the more I sit here and type out my worries and complaints, the more I realized that we'll be fine. I KNOW without a shadow of a doubt that God has our entire trip planned. I know that financially we'll be okay. I know that Christmas will be a time of rejoicing and celebrating no matter which continent we're on. I know that God is Almighty and will have faith in Him forever!
I am so human.
In Him,
E
5 comments:
Oh friend--soooooo human right there with you :) Why can't we just be these super spiritual beings that never get concerned about a thing. I so hear your heart and completely understand. I KNOW that things will work out just fine with the $$$--God is NOT going to send you on a mission, only to abandon you. No way!
Christmas--I would feel the same. I'm trusting with you that you would truly have that peace that passes all understanding.
Love you!
I so get you E.
Last year we BARELY made it home to spend Christmas with our kids and then the day was spent fighting with family. Horrible, gut wrenching time...over our failed adoption and the situation we found ourselves in last year.
The WORST.
But you know, even though it was the worst, the gift of Christ was still there...NOBODY or NO THING could take that from us.
That day, more than any other, when it seemed that every weapon formed against us was prospering, the joy of the Lord was our strength.
And the kids learned something last Christmas that is invaluable:
Jesus is not just the reason for the season...HE IS the SEASON...every season...HE IS.
And no one can take that from us.
And He is faithful. and He is at work for good even when it doesn't feel like it. And He does redeem and restore...what Christmas gifts, huh? :)
If this Christmas finds you away from your cherubs, He will redeem it. Just you wait and see.
Prayers for you all as you wait for Ruslana to finally make her way HOME.
love,
Holly
I just realized as I was reading, YIKES the plane fare!!!
Praying that the Lord will provide. I mean he did pick the time and I'm sure He is well aware of the rates!! He will provide. praying for you! It's a huge mixed emotions time. Totally understandable. Getting Ruslana is an awesome Christmas gift, but leaving your children at Christmas time is very difficult.
I'm also sure God will provide you with the pease you all need.
God Bless!
God WILL provide for you and your precious ones!
This "blog community" has been so invaluable during this hard time. We are in the same place. We have relatives calling wanting to know if weve heard anything so that they can make plans. I finally told them to just make plans and we would either be there or in Ecuador. I too, struggle with the thoughts of not being home for Christmas. My children are older and will be fine. But I dont want this to be the first of many times that "little G" comes before them or takes the forefront while they are left to wonder how they ended up being forgotten. So far they just want their new little sister home so we can move on as a family. We have to continue to trust God and His plan for our lives. I too had wondered if H1N1 was a reason we werent getting our approval. More that it was an issue here in our community. We had a money scare the past few weeks also, ours was different than yours but almost the exact amt $1500 ! On Friday I figured out the discrepancy and feel such a relief! I guess I said all this to let you know YOU ARE NOT ALONE! I thank God for my friends and the other families willing to be open and share what they are going through. ;)
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