.....it's different.
The first time we didn't know what to expect. I didn't know what or what not to say. I was giddy with excitement just thinking about meeting our little guy. A boy. I had never had one of those.:)
The second time we were called, we quickly prayed and hopped in the car. We had about a blink to gather our thoughts. Truly. Celia was born on Tuesday, we learned about her on Thursday afternoon and met her on Friday. We scrambled to complete paperwork and buy baby girl things.
Celia and Charlie were both newborns when we met them. We met them in the hospital and took custody at discharge. But this time....it's different.
We met both Celia and Charlie's birth moms. They are strong women. Each of them asked us to love and cherish their birth children. But this time.....it's different.
I have cried more tears over the past couple of weeks than I knew my eyes could produce. Our family has been showered with prayers and love and support. And we are so unworthy. Yet I have never felt His hands carrying us like I have during this adoption.
This is hard, and I feel guilty even saying that. It is not about us at all.
Right now, we sit in a hotel in New York City knowing that tomorrow we will once again walk into an unfamiliar room....nervous and giddy and unsure. I think my eyes will immediately be fixed upon a perfect little treasure. But this time.....it's different.
I BEG you to pray! Tomorrow we will meet two people who, in exchange for blessing us with our newest, beautiful daughter, will leave forever changed. And broken hearted. PLEASE, pray for them. Pray that they may feel the love, peace and comfort that only our Heavenly Father can bring. PLEASE.
We cannot wait to share our joy with all of you but please put that aside for a while and lift up this precious family. My heart is breaking along with them....and my eyes, once again, are red with tears.
In Him,
E
5 comments:
Your compassion humbles me. Such a bittersweet time, I will be praying.
Oh so bittersweet. Praying for you all.
Your family is beautiful. I know hat as you press deep into Him you will have the right words and know how to do this. God goes before you and will continue to prepare the way. I will be lifting you in prayers tomorrow, and the next day , and the next. So sad you won't be home for us to swap hugs when we bring lil G to a specialist this upcoming weekend. Next time. Hugs.
I pray that they get an opportunity to see even a little bit of your hearts because though they are saying goodbye, they will know that they have found a family who loves their sweet girl nearly as much as they do. They will know that they have found the family that all birth parents hope for when they decide the life they want for their child is not possible with them. I believe you are an answer to their difficult prayer. What a blessing that God has answered them with your love, knowledge, and understanding.
I pray that they get an opportunity to see even a little bit of your hearts because though they are saying goodbye, they will know that they have found a family who loves their sweet girl nearly as much as they do. They will know that they have found the family that all birth parents hope for when they decide the life they want for their child is not possible with them. I believe you are an answer to their difficult prayer. What a blessing that God has answered them with your love, knowledge, and understanding.
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